I apologise in advance for the crappy writting and flow of this. Im still recovering from crying for 2 hours. My head hurts.
I currently work at a hotel front desk and I hate it. It’s my first job and before this I was a caretaker for a disabled family member (unpaid). I’m tired every day all day and I easily get burnt out from my job. But I can’t exactly quit because I can’t find another job. Before this I applied to like 40 jobs and only got interviews for 3 or 4. I only got one, the one I work at now.
So basically would quit and I want to quit but 1. All the jobs available in my area and within my ability to commute I am simply unqualified for or they are something I really really don’t want to do and I know I’d hate.
I don’t have the ability to move to another city, I already did to get away from home.
I don’t know what I want to do. I’m sorry.
I studied history in school but I am not sure if I want to do a masters so I tried to get a job with our one. No history jobs available. Just food service or things I am unqualified for.
Sorry for the shitty writing. I don’t even know what I’m talking about anymore. I’ve started having memory issues as well and being super tired all that time and just feeling off. I atteibute this to my job not being stimulating enough or taking my interest enough. I just feel like it’s making me dumber. I forget things when I didn’t used to, it’s like I can’t even think anymore.
Don’t listen to anything I say, this is just a vent I guess. This probably doesn’t even make sense.