Bleh- sorry, just going through a rough patch- wondering if anyone has been through the same- maybe so I just don't fee l so alone.
I went to school, and have worked in the legal field for several years. I worked in government, and up until last spring I LOVED it. That is- until a new attorney joined my team. She was the worst- her and my boss who I had previously adored became a power tripping nightmare. I tried to hold on, but it got to the point I dreaded going to work, and couldn't help the people anymore. It was crushing because this job meant so much to me in so many ways.
I took the first job I could find-a bank, totally out of my field. Though the people were kind, it was a commute. The job itself was BORING! Literally sitting there for 8 hours a day. It was excruciating. I eventually asked my friend who needed help in her store, if I could help her while I found something more suitable. Week one, my son got very ill and I had to leave early. She said I was unreliable and let me go.
After a frantic search to find employment- I found what felt like a dream job. Back in the legal field 5 minutes from home. I was SO excited. Now- this was a different area of law, so I did have a learning curve. It went downhill and quick. I got berated for having a small grow light on a plant in my office, berated for doing something wrong (that I had never done before, I asked for help but was basically told figure it out), I have heard them (I mainly only work w/ two other attorneys) mock my voice, make fun of me for using the restroom- like just awful high school bully stuff.
I am just so defeated right now. The job market where I live is horrible and it's so difficult to find a decent paying job. Has anyone else just felt like they're not getting it? ; ;