I feel like I am stuck in the most frustrating loop and it is starting to really affect me mentally.
For the past year, and almost two years overall, I have been trying to move into a new role. Im 23F and want to leave this job so bsd, the thing is I am not getting rejected straight away. I am consistently making it to final stage interviews again and again, and then I lose it at the last step.
At first it felt encouraging, like okay I am close, but after this happening so many times it just feels exhausting and honestly a bit soul crushing. It is like I am good enough to get right to the end, but never enough to actually be chosen.
At the same time other parts of my life are not going well either. I went through a breakup that really affected me, I feel really alone, and I have not had any luck meeting anyone new. So it feels like there is no area of my life where I am actually winning right now.
It has got to the point where I feel genuinely stuck and I have started losing motivation. I question myself a lot and I even feel a bit resentful and disappointed because I have been trying so hard for so long with nothing to show for it.
Has anyone else been in this position where you are always almost there but never quite getting through? I got an email today that someone "slightly" edged the requirements. I just feel sad.
I do not even know if I need advice or just to hear that I am not the only one