I’m at a loss. I (M23) really need a new job because the family i live with have been pressuring me heavily to get one, I do gig work but it’s destroying my car and not enough to pay a third of the rent so they’re getting resentful over it. I’ve been incredibly depressed and scared this whole year trying to find a job and dreading going into something soul-sucking that would leave me burnt out and unable to finish my college degree, and finally landed an ideal job, front of house at a counter service restaurant (which I have experience in from a few years ago and miss doing), good pay, good vibes etc. I thought the first day went pretty well. I showed up early, followed instructions and showed initiative, got along with managers and staff, etc. I had to be corrected a couple times and was a little shy/awkward with customers at first (both of those affected by autism/ADHD) but even by the end of the shift I was already improving a lot. I thought for sure by the end of the two weeks of training that I’d have it down. For my first day being the saturday night rush at a pizza place in the middle of downtown I really thought I did okay, and I was genuinely really excited to come back in and learn more.
But then today, one day before what was supposed to be my second day of training, I was abruptly texted that I wouldn’t be scheduled anymore. I called and asked why and was explicitly told “there’s no reason, that’s just what we’re doing”. I know the deal with at-will employment, I know they have the legal right to do this, but that doesn’t make it feel any less cold and unfair. I’m so heartbroken and I can’t stop tearing up. I really really needed this job and I can’t handle going back to the grind of endlessly submitting applications to jobs I don’t want just to be rejected from them either way. I haven’t even told my family yet because I don’t know how and I don’t want to keep feeling like a failure in their eyes, especially since I already told them all about how excited and proud I was to have this job, and because they gave me a deadline of august 1st to start paying an equal amount of rent which I don’t know how I’m going to afford anymore. I feel like a failure and I don’t know how I’m supposed to go back and present myself in interviews as someone who’s confident and self-assured when I just feel even more incompetent and hopeless now. Does anyone have any advice?