I left a big corporate job for a tiny company with only 2 other employees. Today marked my 90 days but I am quitting after this week.
I thought leaving corporate was going to be rainbows and butterflies but in my experience it’s been anything but that. I’ve never cried at work until now, never felt so unsupported and stressed. I work directly beside my employer everyday and it’s driving me nuts.
I have not received any feedback unless it’s negative petty shit, no performance reviews, nothing. I’m working weekends and evenings as the industry I’m in requires it and I just want my life back. I have no personal days, no sick days, my commute is 40 mins each way and the only perk is more pay.
I’ve come to the realization that more pay is not always worth it and I’d rather take a pay cut for my sanity. For the first time in my life, I had 4 interviews back to back. I got 2/4 jobs and still waiting to hear back from one.
I’ve already accepted the offer for one today and am supposed to start Monday. I was hired at my current job due to one of the other people going down to part time and I knew this, but I thought part time was 2-3 days in office still helping but it turns out she plans on now completely leaving.
I feel absolutely awful that I’ve been planning on leaving and my employer has no idea while they’re getting all excited accepting more and more jobs. They have posted to hire someone else but that doesn’t change the fact that I need worklife balance and who knows how long it would take as it took them 7 months to find me.
From the day I started it’s been nothing but pettiness from my employer, texting me while sitting beside me instead of having a conversation about something I can improve on, snarky remarks when I try to explain myself, and not a damn “good job” has came out of their mouth. Meanwhile, my other coworker is telling me to take anxiety meds to get over the stress/anxiety this job is causing me.
I was SO desperate to get out, I finally have an out, and now I feel like the biggest POS ever for leaving. I know I didn’t decide to open my own business and im not responsible for the success of their company, but knowing I’m royally fucking them over is not sitting right with me… help