Hi, everyone, 9 months ago I finished my PhD from an EU country, I was actively looking for positions in my field (STEM), and after interviewing twice (3-4 months multiple rounds), I was accepted and then rejected due to funding both times.
Then, I found a job (completely different than what I do), I worked hard, I delivered things asked of me, but there just wasn't any democracy, and at any moment, things went wrong, I was instantly blamed without proof. I had to ask for everything like a proper chair, keyboard, the salary was always 1-2 days later. So it caused a lot of conflict, as I firmly asked basic things, and refused to take blame.
I knew it was coming, but I had given my 110%. Two months in, then I was fired over an email for asking to get paid on the evening of last day of the month. The boss was so mad he yelled at me next day, and then blamed me for his reaction.
While he was firing me, he picked on every aspect of me, he forced words like you looked unhappy, you were negative, you don't even know how to use chatGPT, he had twisted everything I ever said. I apologised, I plead him because it was going to be financial ruin, he didn't budge. I couldn't believe someone could be so hateful.
Every morning I wake up, and go to sleep, I feel traumatized from the last interaction, like I can't get over it. There was no HR to resolve things, he was the boss, HR, everything, I couldn't do much. I would go for therapy but it's 6 months waiting time here.
Now, it looks like a 2 months blip on my Resume. What hurts the most is, I am highly qualified, I know I am worthy, I have so much potential.
I was fired right after I delivered the full production level projects, and finally had learned to do things. Now I find it so difficult to get up every morning and do the job search again, especially after a really exhausting PhD of 5 years.