I was working at an AAPI non-profit at the start of the year with great enthusiasm for the mission and purpose the organization stood for. As someone who was passionate about advocating for low-income, BIPOC individuals to receive assistance in housing, immigration, and other matters, I was fully invested in my job albeit the low pay. I worked as an admin assistant taking in phone calls, getting clients/potential ones connected, and processing mailing. It was a very demanding position to work in but it felt so rewarding to me. I wanted to improve and grow by proactively asking for clarifications and more tasks/responsibilities. I even went so far as to attend the outreach events. My supervisors and fellow co-workers made me feel like I was valued and apart of their family.
Yesterday, when they let me go because they thought I was "not a good fit" and didn't perform to the levels they had during probation, it stung me. I was relatively new (2 months) and adjusting to my role. I made minor mistakes here and there but they never happened again. I was always on time, proactive as I can with my supervisors, and wanted to take on more responsibilities. A part of me felt jaded because I believed that my supervisors should have been more proactive and communicative with me. They did treat me nice, but they were kind of hands off and I had to go out of my way to ask them for clarifications and tasks here and there. I wished they gave me a chance to grow and improve plus outlined their expectations. I do feel slightly betrayed and hurt because they made me feel valuable until they didn't. I can't help but wonder what I did wrong.
When I asked the person who hired me, "what were some of the areas where I underperformed?", they simply didn't elaborate and said that "I wasn't a good fit." What was that supposed to mean? Since I started, there were no performance metrics nor expectations management laid out to me. They simply gave me corrective feedback if I made a simple mistake but nothing else. All of my training and observation came from other co-workers. I would ask for clarifications for certain tasks but that was about it. They would simply thank me for successfully completing their busy work like mailing nothing else. There were no constructive feedback or check ins. On the outside, things seemed good but I don't know.
If anyone, especially if you worked in non-profit or management, explain to me WTF went on. What went through management's head when they thought I was a "low performer" even though I worked hard? I would gladly appreciate it so I can avoid wasting my time and applying to places like this.