Ever since I got laid off from the job I’d only been at for five months, everything has felt like a nightmare.
My savings dipped below my absolute bare minimum last month. I’m still pretty new to working life, so I don’t have much saved up, and I’m still paying off my student loans too.
I don’t even know if I’ll ever be able to work again.
Most of my role has been taken over by AI. Nobody’s hiring juniors. And even for the few junior roles that do exist, senior people with years of experience and stacked portfolios are taking all the jobs.
I’ve thought about switching careers, even though I don’t genuinely want to, but no one wants to hire me because I don’t have experience in anything else either.
The future feels so fucking bleak.
Since the layoff, for the past few months, I haven’t wanted to talk to anyone anymore. Not my family. Not even my boyfriend.
Yesterday, a car suddenly pulled out into the road, and the driver stopped right before it hit me. My first thought was, "Damn. So close."
No matter how much I tailor my portfolio or polish my CV, I don’t even know if anyone actually reads it. At this point, I honestly feel like begging someone to give me a chance, even if they don’t pay me for three months.
I’ve gone to therapy too. But therapy costs money. And honestly, if I got a job offer tomorrow, I probably wouldn’t even be depressed anymore. So what’s the point?
I really don’t know anymore.... Sorry for the depressing post..