I've been with this company for just about 3 years. We've gone through 18 managers within that time.
I work hard. I'm one of the only full time employees clocking with 45 hours every week. Clocking some of the highest sales of the entire week. I've been told by management themselves I am a strong server/bartender. They've all had positive things to say about me. (all 17 of them) Until this new one.
The backstory is, I have about 5 vivid, realistic, nightmares a week about work. Without fail 5 times a week minimum. It's always me behind the bar or serving an unrealistic amount of people all by myself and I just fail everytime. This past weekend, I worked a shift as busy as it is in my nightmares. I was terrified, overwhelmed, my brain kept blanking out and I was having a hard time even processing peoples words. During this time, the big boss shows up. I knew I was done for in that moment. Management was not supposed to only have 2 of us working it should've been 3. However, it's my fault for showing the stress on my face. I was then pulled and told I will be having a sit down and basically that it's not looking good for me whatsoever. If I won't be fired I'll be demoted or on suspension. I feel extremely depressed because I feel like I don't deserve this over a normal human body reaction. After being let down by management for poor scheduling. I have no degree no backup job. I am extremely lost and terrified for the future