I was laid off in February from my job of 9 years. I finally landed a new job in October and have been working there for 2 months. The team is great, the work is fine...the processes are extremely different from my last company but I am getting used to things. Overall...things are going fine.
I feel like my layoff + 8 months of rejection from hundreds of jobs has left my confidence at rock bottom. I was actually approved for a promotion before I was laid off. My layoff was a bit complicated because my boss or his boss were not involved in the decision. Our VP who got my promotion approved was laid off, our team was then being moved under another VP, and that VP decided to lay me off without discussing with anyone. All that to say that my layoff really caught me off guard because I was doing exceptionally well at work. And I feel like this has led me to never really feel..."safe". And it's also intensified every little mistake I've made at my new job. For reference, I'm in graphic design, and even getting typical design feedback during the review process, which normally I would not think twice about, has me feeling like I'm at risk of being fired/laid off. And I know it's irrational but being laid off is genuinely traumatic. And being rejected non-stop for 8 months is also fairly traumatic. I really feel like...even if I'm doing well I'm at risk. And a small mistake will SURELY put me at risk.
I'm just wondering how long it took people to get past this feeling and start feeling at least more comfortable at your new job? I feel like I'll never feel "safe" necessarily, but I just want to feel comfortable and not question ever little thing!