My first true well-paying job with the most amazing people, work culture, schedule, and work load ever. I have bipolar 2 and ADHD. I’ve never been a bad employee, regardless of the industry and work. It was the single aspect of my life I’ve always had control over.
I don’t know what changed within me to make me struggle so terribly. I had issues with medication changes over the last few months and it completely disrupted my life and work. I was open with my boss, but even after a PIP, I failed in many ways.
I did not expect this to happen today. It was such a great day. I’ve never been fired before. I love the mission, I loved everything, and yet I completely ruined it. I’m so unhappy that this is the one time I’ve truly failed at something that brought me so much joy. I’ve completely forsaken myself and these were the consequences. I cannot believe I did this to myself and I can’t believe this is really happening, but I take full accountability.
I envisioned I would be here for years, and yet I didn’t commit enough to make sure this dream came to a reality. I am heartbroken and ashamed.