Sorry for lengthy post, and if I posted to wrong sub. Warning: I got flamed previously for this while Im genuinely asking for advice / tips.
ADHD I struggle with focusing, I get distracted easily, misplace a few items, can't hold / grasp a long list task (verbally) I have to write it down / take notes
I currently work as a grocery stocker in meat department.
For background: I work at a particular company but was treated like a punching bag (supervisors and managers say I don't do shit, lousy worker, I don't do anything, taken their anger on me even yelled at one point. Some time then I have worked under a different company and they really told me off that I need to pick up the pace very rudely. I was trying to haul ass (understaffed, little to no training)
Now: In my new meat stocker job, I have a co-worker who is alot fast than me. Seems like he's jog / sprinting sometimes to most of the time. I understand I should mind my own business and I would never approach them about anything.
My concern is: I feel bad at times that I should pick up the pace, I hold / bring the team and bosses down because Im not fast enough I think to my self "Damn dude why am I so slow" It stresses me out I may not be doing a good job, and this manager has told me that I should be at my co-workers speed and level with very high sense of urgency. Im not that slow, I work at a steady pace while quickly because we are a busy store and we are short staffed! Basically Im hard on myself because of my past and some hurtful events or so, sorry for sounding such a wuss . No Im not giving up, I want to learn.
I just wanted to see some other people's insights