Since 2022 onwards I have had nothing but intensely horrible job experiences that have either left me extremely depressed, terribly anxious, or even suicidal (currently writing this before my last shift of the week that I am absolutely dreading).
My first job I got in 2019 at the age of 18 was the only decent job I had. I was terminated from that job due to the pandemic closing our location and did not get another job until 2022 due to covid.
Bike shop - fired from that job a month in and the boss was a total lunatic. A long time employee told me the day I was fired that they were planning to quit as a “fuck you” to the company if that tells you anything.
Restaurant/entertainment job - management was always drunk or high and 1 manager was extremely inappropriate and made a series of sexual advancements, comments, and gestures towards me.
Hospital - was not bad in terms of the way I was treated but the job itself was unpleasant due to being on call, and having zero schedule (and I was extremely depressed at that time/suicidal after leaving - actually ghosting - the restaurant job).
Car shop - owner exclusively picked on me, would blame me for every mistake (even if someone else did it), made me extremely anxious to come into work, went to HR and they did absolutely nothing (of course).
Therapy clinic - private practice, owner was psychotic, already had a complaint against her, and berated me to the point of tears.
Vet clinic (current job) - again, a private practice, the owner doesn’t really yell or call me names but yesterday was the most worst shift yet - and I’ve been working there less than a month - he was micromanaging me and giving me a hard time for everything thing I did - my coworker who has been there for 14 years even said she felt bad for me and I should maybe start looking for a new job (I told her I was looking for another part time job anyway) although she doesn’t want me to leave.
Is it me? This can’t be normal, right? Where I live it’s extremely hard to get a job (moved here in 2024 for school and just got this job) so I can’t afford to leave without finding something else and have had no luck so far. I know it’s not worth my mental health but I seriously cannot afford to leave right now. I want to call in sick so bad today but we’re short staffed, I don’t want to get fired, etc. honestly I just don’t know what to do anymore. After that plethora of horrible experiences it makes me want to never work again.