I’m a 20 year old who doesn’t have much job experience under my belt. I’m finding myself depressed hunting for a retail job, being ghosted, and calling for an updated just to find out they’re not hiring. I’m starting to lose confidence in finding a job and my self worth because the loses are starting to feel to like they define me. I’m dependent on my parents but even my parents are struggling with their jobs. I feel like a loser being at home and being dependent or my parents. My parents told me school or work but even trying to find a job to save up for school is hard. With my depression it's good for me to go out or even hang out with friends but even having a social life and buying necessities feels like I'm being financially irresponsible. I've contemplated own life because it already feel like I'm not living. I would even be less of a financial burden if I weren't here.