I applied everywhere, I get the economy and job market is bad but I cant help but feel I'm failing as a human. I have a solid resume, lots of certs, lots of experience in my solar career, I get called and they say "we love your resume!" Get promised a call or a call back, falls dead. Rinse and repeat, even the damn union for a job, foreman says "hr will give you a call, we need you now! Wait for a call this week" Next week, "soon, weather is weird but hes calling you soon youre on the list" all good, not upset sounds great, falls short, call him next week and say "hey I dont mind waiting, just curious on the process and if the call is guaranteed, if not totally get it" "ill have more info once I go back" nothing, gave up this week after my last text didnt get a response and think its just dead opportunity.
I have been called, I applied in oil, and small jobs in my local area like whatburger, anything. I am going crazy, I feel like a failure and its not even my fault but I feel I am damn failing. I am going absouletly crazy, and I dont know why people cant just say "TBH, we lost the job and im sorry" instead they ghost, its so disrespectful and a waste of my damn time, just say sorry and move on.
Idk what else to do other than wait and I'm tired of waiting, I am flat broke to all hell. I am a damn hard worker, and I love my career, I just feel life is just throwing me around and all I can think is "all I do is work and help my friends, wtf did I even do?". Anyways, I'm good, just frustrated, I hate my hometown and just want out, i always bounce back but ive never been this bad, I always bounce back but fuck what did I even do? All I do is work and help my friends and family, like what possible lesson is life teaching me other than "hey dude, just doing a damn stress test, can you handle it?". Anyways, im good, just god damn, im super uoset about the union too, that wouldve been a great opportunity.